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October 29, 2012

Every once in a while, I'll get an idea in my head and then my imagination will take it and start running around flailing like a kid with sparklers. Then I get sort of sad and depressed. It's not a serious depression, it's a pouty “but whyyyyyyyyyyyyy” kind of feeling. But of course I can't do what I was thinking about, for various reasons. Then I start thinking about how my current situation is worse even though it's not, it's just different. And then I feel like I want to try anyway and see if anyone notices. But I know I shouldn't, but I still want to.

I'm weird.


October 26, 2012

I’m just… scared right now. I don’t know what to say or how to say it. I think I need a diary or something.

Weight loss challenge

October 22, 2012

I've definitely been slacking. It's been much longer than a month and no picture. There's also been no substantial weight loss. Just the usual ups and downs. And work lately has been leaving me… discontent. I'm not sure why. I just feel a bit depressed lately. Things have changed so quickly, that has to be most of it.